I do want to be with you but at the same time I don’t. You told me how you went shopping by yourself and you felt so good. and how all your friends were telling you they haven’t seen you so happy for so long. And how finally you have time for yourself. I just don’t want to hold you back. If you’re going to be with me, I want you to be happier than you are without me. Not the other way around, you know? like the whole friends saying you’ve haven’t been this happy in what seems like forever makes me want to back off. Like just the way you said it, or maybe you’re just being you and having bad ways with words. Either way, idk. Like I personally want to hear that you’ll be happier with me than not having me.

Second thoughts.